I have been walking around the past few days, in spoiled brat mode, making a mental list of all the miniscule things that were making me absolutely crazy. A list that included things like:
- If that dang dog whines at me one more time...
- If Owen doesn't brush his teeth like I've told him to do for the hundredth time...
- I just want to eat a full meal without having to get up from the table 14 times to fetch things for people.
- Do you people think I'm a short order cook, maid, roto-rooter employee?
From the lady behind me in K-Mart right down to the squishiest member of our family, I had a complaint relating to every single person I came into contact with during the last 48 hours. And really, it all boiled down to...
Why are you making me do this job that I so willingly signed up for?
And then last night, after being particularly bratty (let's be honest, bratty is my nice word for a not so nice word) to le husband, I read this post by Amanda about Martyr Moms.
Talk about a slap in the face.
A slap in the face that I needed so so badly.
And then I did something that I hadn't done in a long time.
I prayed. I really, really prayed.
I stop ignoring that little taptaptap from the Lord and prayed for forgiveness harder than I ever had before.
I woke up this morning refreshed and ready to serve my family.
Ready to raise them up instead of tear them down.
That's all I have for today.
Happy Wednesday..
Oh I so know those days, hang tight. This too shall pass. it was good to hear your heart!
ReplyDeleteI love everything about this post. I'm not a mother, nor am I going through necessarily the same things you are, but your faith really strengthened my faith... I mean, significantly. It was inspirational to read what you wrote and how you handled your situation. I think we all forget that taptaptapping sometimes. Keep on keeping on, girl, you're great!
ReplyDeletei recently had the same thing happen to me. for me, i think it's going to be a daily, minute-by-minute, conscious effort to happily and willingly serve my family. it's easy to get swept up in all the work of daily life but the truth is (just like you said)this is a job that, "i so willingly signed up for." so much truth and inspiration in your post. thanks for sharing!
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Happy Wednesday, indeed! Thank you for this reminder. Sometimes it takes this to kick my butt back into reality and out of my pity party. Loved this!
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