I've been reflecting on a lot lately, and have been feeling a small but persistent tug. I feel like that little tugging is pulling my head and my heart in a new direction.
And it feels as if that direction may be leading me away from commercial photography. Focusing more on my family. Focusing less on the numbers. More on the art of creating an image. Focusing more on nurturing and feeding my family's souls. Focusing more on creativity and creating a portfolio I truly want to stand behind. Focusing more on writing and sharing with those around me. (That includes you, internet!)
I'm not sure what I'm saying either. And trying to put the words to paper make me feel as if I'm typing in circles. But above all, I want to be transparent. Y'all know those people who's Facebook streams just look like a mile long jumble of rainbows and unicorns and happy smile vomit? That's not transparent. You know that other person's Facebook stream that is basically just status update after status update complaining about everything? "Why is the sky blue? Blue is ugly. Everyone sucks!" That's not transparent.* I want to be able to share the good, along with the bad, the funny, the uncomfortable, the cringe-worthy, and the mundane without that little annoying voice in the back of my head telling me that I should put on a dignified facade and not show the bad for fear of judgment.
*P.S. - I really don't think Facebook is the place for transparency. That's what blogs are for. (In my humble opinion)
Transparency. I'm going to try it. Starting now.